Come on in. It’s great to see you!
How are you? Any news? Your hair looks nice!
Can I get you anything, tea? Coffee? A spicy chai? Sit, sit, I’ve put the kettle on, now let me just find where I’ve stashed the good biscuits…
I’m so glad we can finally do this!
You know how it is, we get so busy with life that we forget to give time to the important things. Then again, modern life isn’t designed with human connection in mind, is it? We’re so caught up in our individual device dictatorships that we’ve completely lost connection to each other – to our people and to ourselves!
Oh, me? I’m here to invite you on an adventure! One that starts with that fairy-tale knock at the door to your deep female psyche.
I want those old, buried memories to stir within you. And come back to life.
Because deep within you there’s that memory of your absolute, undeniable and irrevocable kinship with the wild feminine.
It’s a relationship which may have become ghostly with neglect, buried deep by over-domestication, and outlawed by the prevailing culture. You may have forgotten her names, and you may not answer when she calls yours.
But, in your bones, you know her.
And you yearn toward her because you know she belongs to you and you to her.
In fact, you were born into this fundamental, elemental and essential relationship. Your essence was derived from it. And there are moments when you experience her, however fleetingly, which make you mad with wanting to reclaim her.
This vitalising “taste of the wild” usually comes to you during the miracle of change within yourself; when you tend to your needs and your desires as you would a beloved garden.
And glimpses of her come to you through sights of great beauty.
While watching the splendour of a sunset over the water, seeing your cat sprawled blissfully in a sliver of sunlight, or when admiring the perfectly shaped tiny nose of your newborn babe.
A sense of her comes to you through sound – in music that excites your heart, moves you from within and calls your soul out to dance under the full moon. She reaches out to you through the written and spoken word – in poems and stories, or sometimes in just a single word that enters you like a storm come to clear the fog.
And she stirs you to remember – even just for an instant – what substance you’re really made from. And where your true home is.
Your longing for her intensifies when you happen across another who has secured this wildish relationship within her. And your longing for her increases every time you realise you have given too little time to your mystic cookfire, your dream time, your own creative life, your life’s work or your true loves.
Those fleeting moments come to you, both through beauty as well as loss that makes you so bereft, so agitated, that you can no longer resist and begin to pursue your wild nature.
Then you leap into the forest, or into the desert, or into the snow, and run hard.
Your eyes scanning the ground, your hearing sharply tuned, searching under, searching over, searching for a clue, a remnant, a sign that she still lives, that you have not lost your chance.
And when you pick up that trail – like many women before you – you ride hard to catch up. You clear off your desk, clear off old relationships, clear out your mind, turn a new page, insist on a break, break the rules, stop the world… for you are not going on without her any longer.
And that’s usually when you meet me; yet another guide on your journey.
I’m Eva, an illustrator and writer. And my life’s work is inner transformation.
I’ve spent a lifetime filled with a longing for the wild woman in myself and there are few culturally sanctioned antidotes for this yearning. I was taught to feel shame for being my mother’s savage daughter, the one who runs barefoot cursing sharp stones. I was taught to grow my hair long and how to use it to hide my feelings.
Yet the shadow of the wild woman lurked behind my eyes during my days and my nights.
No matter where I went, the shadow that trotted behind me was undeniably four-legged – and eventually, I could no longer deny the knowing of my own soul.
So I set out to retrieve, examine, love and understand the wild woman within me – to hold her against my deep psyche as one who is both magic and medicine.
And now I offer you the same.
I’m offering to guide you through your own journey of discovery. To help you reconnect with the fierce, healthy and visionary attributes of this instinctual knowing deep within you.
Does that sound like something you’d like to do?
But, you came here to get the scoop on me, so…
Growing up I was quiet. An introspective dancer tasting, moving and feeling my way through life. I could spend hours doing my own thing and not miss being around others. A dreamer and a thinker.
Reading books and going on adventures was so much better than ordinary life that I spent a lot of time in books, at the library, watching movies and devoured nature documentaries.
Being around other people was exhilarating and exhausting at the same time because the lines between my feelings and their feelings blurred too easily.
I preferred animals over humans since they were quiet and challenged me to apply my empathy and deep analysis in order to communicate with them.
Time and again I was told…
- you’re too sensitive!
- you shouldn’t take things so seriously!
- you need to grow thicker skin!
- you’re too emotional!
- don’t be so dramatic!
It quickly became overwhelming and I lived life under the constant stress of feeling like the world was against me. No one seemed to really get me and I was labelled as ‘odd’.
I tried to fit in with the extroverts, be more like them, because it wasn’t socially acceptable to spend so much time alone.
But my life ended up being a feedback loop from hell where I felt bad for even feeling bad, guilty for feeling guilty and anxious because I felt anxious.
I kept wondering, ‘What’s wrong with me?!’
Then, finally, I realised that it wasn’t about growing thicker skin
Through art, I’ve reclaimed control over my own emotions.
Feeling and processing things deeply means that it takes more than talking to really work through something to the point where I can let go of it.
Working with artistic mediums is a process of discovery and an effective way of expressing those things which are subconscious or difficult to express in conversation.
Being an artist is to emerge from the dark and formless roots of your unconscious and bring with you the deeper truths about life that you’ve uncovered on the way.
And sharing your journey with others so that they can also discover their own truth from it.
What I’ve learned about art
Art is a human act
The ultimate purpose of art is not to produce a product.
The purpose of art is to produce thinking, to explore the nature of perception, to create pleasure and to evoke strong emotion.
I use products, such as hoodies, as a way to bring art into your life in more ways than just hanging it on your wall or seeing it in a gallery.
To be truly accessible, art cannot be locked away in secure vaults but needs to be out in the world, with the people it brings joy and meaning to.
Art is courageous
Art is generous.
Art is courageous.
Art is provocative.
Art is emotive.
And as an artist, I must constantly endeavour to bare my insecurities and find the courage to be vulnerable in front of others.
Art is rebellion
I can keep track of what I will get in return, or I can make art.
I can enjoy the status quo, or I can make art.
I can be perfect, or I can make art.
This way of being is in itself rebellious to me – not because I fight against anyone or anything.
But because I’ve committed to discovering my true nature and living in accordance with it.
I believe that buying art should be easy and fun
It should leave you happy and uplifted, with a feeling that you’ve just learned something about yourself or reaffirmed something you already knew.
Adorning your home with art – be it commissions or originals from an artist, art prints or something your 3-year-old made at daycare – it’s a form of self-expression.
And a way for you to actively create the person you want to be.
By displaying your art and favourite decor pieces, you’re not just making it feel like home, you’re also learning to appreciate all the special details of where you are – such as the way the light comes in through the windows at a certain time of day and lights up the space you have created for yourself.
How can you buy my work?
My work is available in my webshop. I’m constantly updating and adding to my shop so the best way for you to keep up with what’s going on is to sign up for my newsletter – you can do that right here or at the bottom of this page.
Other ways to support me:
- Follow me on Instagram – SAVE, SHARE, LIKE and COMMENT on my content to help me to gain more visibility – and it’s 100% free for you!
- Follow me on Pinterest – let me know if you want to join a board or have one I can join!
- Grab some free and fun journal printables from the shop to help you declutter your mind.
Doing any of the above will cause me to do a little happy dance á la Lucy Lawless. Thank you for your support!
May your pants be comfy, your coffee strong,
and your Mondays short! 🖖