When I worked full-time, there were days I left work feeling like an 18-wheeler had done a 5-point-turn on over me.
I felt totally drained and exhausted. I came home and wouldn’t have the energy to do a single thing. Still, dinner needed to be cooked and lunch made ready for the next day, the apartment needed cleaning, the cat needed feeding and the litter box cleaning.
Overwhelmed by others’ energy I had very little patience left to consciously offer anything to anyone else. I was completely spent, and that was just by Monday evening.
At work, I spent a lot of time in the bathroom stall, tears silently falling, my shoulders shaking from sobbing, without a clue of what just happened or why I was feeling so lost.
I would come to work perfectly happy and within minutes of entering the building, I’d turn moody and withdrawn. As the day went on, I got angry and then depressed. My emotions flickered like someone was playing with my emotional light switch.
To add insult to injury, without being aware of what was going on, I would regularly create a mental story to explain away all the emotions I was feeling.
I would bring up negative self-talk, old baggage, stories, fights, or even think about what negativity the future would bring.
As an empath, I feel everything deeply. Emotional, physical and mental perceptions affect me strongly. Just going on social media can change my mood in a moment.
Before I was aware of being an empath, I not only felt what others did, but also took on their emotional, physical and mental ailments as my own.
Learning how to manage my own energy and draw healthy boundaries has changed my work from a parade of misery to a much more joyful experience.